.Tuesday, November 27, 2007 ' 1:36 AM Y
I was borned on 25th October 7:30pm at Gleneagle Hospital.
I am the oldest in my family.
I had no one to talk to or play with since young.
I made friends with the kids at the playground.
I often wonder why do some other kids always like to stick out their tongue to me in the lift when Im with my parents.
Im in a family being pampered because I was the only child.
I wasnt happy.
I want a sibling who would be able to talk to me and go to school with me.
I wanted someone to play with me.
I grew up without siblings and Im in a world whereby I have friends.
I used to quarrel with my friends and had even made myself being the bad girl when I was sec 2.
I changed and I had my friends back with me again.
Eventually I had my vball girls with me, with me through thick and thin.
I remembered trainings was a really good get-together for us because we play and sweat and fall down together.
We played and finally stepped down because of our o levels when we were at sec 4.
Now we have graduated and all of us are in different schools, have different friends and now we no longer get to go out as often as we want to.
I have made nafa friends.
They are nice people.
But I still miss my secondary school friends.
Still, even though I have my friends with me.
Only my secondary school friends knows me the best.
But now, Im alone.
Back to square one.
Alone as it used to be.
Alone in the family.
Alone in myself.
I still talk to myself very often because I'm always doing that since I was young.
Yep. I wished everything was back to normal.
I wished I was dead, I was not born
because right now Im suffering the SHIT in my life.
She wants me dead.
She finds me useless.
And some other issues.
Who would be there for me?
Im sure my friends would be there for me,
Im sure daryl would be there for me,
but why do I still feel so empty on the inside?
Why do I still feel so alone.
I really wished that Im dead.
For the first time of these problems, I really wished I was
dead.
