.Saturday, June 14, 2008 ' 6:54 AM Y
Dear diary, I gained and I lost.
Im really very tired.
It always have to be like this.
Im lost for words.
Everything I do, there's always something going wrong.
Why cant everything just be back how it used to be. I know its impossible. I just wish it stops at sec 2. everything was perfectly fine.
Im really tired.
Im just lost.
I always think about my life every day.
Do you all know I really really wanna migrate to other country if I ever have a chance to?
I guessed you all wont know. Not even daryl.. Seriously.. I wanna leave here.. No matter what reason is it for. I just feel unwanted sometimes.. I really do. Not being emotional but I really do feel that way. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HEbzqwQMhEs
Why am I feeling this way.
Seriously, Im super fucked up now. Fucked up of myself.
Always fucking messing up things in my life.
nabeh.. I seriously am a stupid, sucky. dumb bimbo airhead kind of person.
I lost my super good friends.. at least to me..Really lost them. The both of them.Sometimes I even think I lost my self. Haiz. What the hell is wrong with me.. This is the first time Im using fucking many fucking words.. Just expressing my thoughts. Haiz..RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I definitely will go mia one day.. I definitely will..
