.Tuesday, December 9, 2008 ' 7:18 PM Y
There are times when Im really sad when I think back of the past. It just kinda kills my mood and my mentality.
Perhaps like what ying said, I might have never moved on at all. I could be deceiving myself all along. I dont know. Probably that's the reason why I always dont wanna go home, or rather. I want to hang out with my friends all the time to keep myself busy.
And I should learn to cope with loneliness. Like what ziyang told me. I should cope with being alone. And I really should, since Im always alone since I was born, no siblings, just me and myself, no one to talk to in the family.
Lucky I've got my buddies and friends and work.
I really dont wanna think back of the past that keeps on haunting me wherever I go.
It sucks. It really sucks. I cant explain the feeling but you know what I mean. Whenever Im alone, I'll think of those and it really aches. Probably the reason why I lost faith in love. Once bitten twice shy. I can play and have fun. But if you were to ask me to get into a relationship, it would probably take lotsa courage for me to be involved in a relationship because I really lost faith in it. I dont believe in forever stuff anymore. Used to believe in that, but now I dont. There's no forever thing. Even friends will fall out due to misunderstandings.
So basically nothing lasts forever in my dictionary. There's love always, friends always but no love forever and friends forever. But right now, Friends forever do exist at this point in time with my........shenny and ying and my nafa friends and my outside friends. Hahahahaha. =]
Thanks for giving me support all these while. I really loved y'all. MuackMuack.
And having that merry go round in my house also kinda gives me heartache. Think of past and etc.
Argh. Move on move on babe. I hope.
Yes. Im feeling emo right now. Very emo. Call me anyone?? Call me to chat. Im feeling sucky.
